I'm just going to come right out and say it. We skipped church on Sunday. I know. You don't have to say anything. Church is at 12:30, which in my opinion is the worst time to have church.
We got up, normal time. Dinked around the house all morning long until about 11:30, when I realized we only had an hour until church started. So even though we knew it was wrong, we decided that we'd go drive around and see what houses we could find for sale (because we're looking to buy soon)...
So we drive around for a while, get out and looked at some, and finally decide to go home. Once back on the road home, I casually looked down at the clock and it's 6:30. Ho hum. Look back at the clock...OH CRAP! It's 6:30!
We had a temple prep class at 6.
I was so disgusted with myself. The whole way home I felt sick to my stomach mainly because of missing class. I mean, hello? This is what we're getting ready for. It's our lives we're talking about here...! At home we took the groceries inside and I just stood there, disgusted, looking at them, thinking, 'I don't want these.'
So I called Ronda (our teacher) and left her a message (because of course she was at class) telling her how sorry I was for us not showing up.
I decided then, that taking a shower might help me feel not so bad. So I went upstairs, still feeling like dirt, and just broke down. I got down on my knees and just let it all out, praying not only for forgiveness, but for the awful feeling inside me to be gone.
I kid you not, when I sat up, it was gone. I kind of sat there for a minute, feeling like what I had done was so horrible, that maybe I was supposed to suffer for a little bit so the next time I felt like skipping church, maybe I'd think twice. But no matter how hard I waited for that bad feeling to come back, it didn't. It was just gone. I felt SO relieved! The only bad feeling I had was knowing I had to wait until next week to go to church. When I went back downstairs, Joe told me Ronda had called when I was in the shower, saying that the other couple didn't show up, so there was no class that night. Heavenly Father is pretty amazing.... tell me why, again, why I would want to break the Sabbath?
5 comments:
gosh I hate when I do something wrong when I know better it always makes me feel crappy and I think, "really Kim is it that hard to be good" I hear ya about church being hard with kids, but then again it is probably a better feeling then not going:)
Hey thanks for your comments on my blog! I'm glad you found me. We are all doing well. Adjusting to four! I would love to get together sometime! Gotta go little man is hungry!
You are so cute. Your heart is in the right place. We've all missed a sunday here and there. I am so excited for your temple date. Do you have the official date set?
Hey Cass, I'm flying in on the evening of the 23rd, so if you guys are rolling through that day I would love to see you! I will be home until Oct 9th.
Hey Cassi!! So good to hear from you. Katy had told me she ran into you a while back. And hey, we're not perfect, sometimes we slip, but we have a gracious God! He'll forgive ya ;). Good to see things are going good. Your kids are adorable!
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